Waiting Can Make You Insane

The title says it all. Waiting can make you feel like you are going insane.

Seriously, it can.

What is the wait about? The book that I sent on November 5th. I know it takes 3-4 months to hear back from said agent and that is why I have been kind of quiet on this end.

Why?

Because if I am not “thinking” about my writing, then maybe I won’t go bonkers wondering if it will come down to the 11th hour before they read it.

What am I expecting to hear back? I have no idea, but good (deal) or bad (rejection) I am okay with that. I will do just like Stephen King, put a nail in the wall, stick that piece of paper on it, and keep going. No one will ever tell me I can’t do it, because the only thing that I would ever let hold me back is well, me.

That’s not happening.

I shall remain here in my little corner of the world, listening to my characters as they speak to me and developing my craft.

After all, that’s what writing is all about, right?

New territory

I feel like Lewis and Clarke right now. Exploring the wild yonder, venturing into unknown territory.  Why?  Because I have rough drafted a chapter book. Normally, I write early readers and picture books. So this is definitely a new direction for me.

The interesting thing is that it started out as a picture book and morphed. The more I wrote, the more the story needed and before long I had chapters. I now realize I need more details to fill it out, but they come at me fast and furious.  So, I scribble them down with whatever I have and stick them in a folder for the book. Then I work it into the appropriate sections.

Research is going to be key. Not for the subject matter, it’s fiction, so, it will be whatever I make it. But as far as how long it is supposed to be, how many chapters I need, how long should the chapters be? Since it’s for the 6-8 year old range, I am thinking about 2-3 pages per chapter.

Well, it looks like I have some reading to do, so I am off to my sons room to dig into the book shelves! Hard work, huh?

Somedays, It Just Pours Out

Really, it does. Sometimes, inspiration can just allow your creativity to pour out of you. I am property sitting this week while my boys are at home. Where am I property sitting? The NC coast. My friends own cottages and I am property sitting their little location of six.

Lucky gal? Yes, I am. I am even luckier, because every single time I visit here, I write a new book. Seriously. I don’t think it would work the same way if I lived here,  but I don’t know.  Could it be that I am away and not having to deal with day-to-day life? Laundry, cooking, cleaning, school, PTA, etc.? No clue. But I am betting that without worrying I am allowing myself to enter a state of Flow.

That is what my friends John and Scott would tell me. That I had entered a state of Flow and was letting pure thought, energy and creativity shine through. Guess it is time to take myself off to the bookstore to pick it up.

If I knew I could keep this level of work up, I would have thrown my hat into NaNoWriMo this year. But, at this point, I am not sure that it’s possible. There is a lot on my plate. I have this blog, that I neglect something fierce at times, my other blog A Daily Pinch, PR work for a non-profit that is starting in Richmond and work for a friends non-profit in Wilmington. To top it off, I had a reader ask me if I would do a budget Christmas newsletter for A Daily Pinch. So, after an email survey, I am also working on that!

At least I am writing. It may not all be picture books, but I am keeping myself sharp. That’s a good thing.

Biting the bullet.

I did it. I bit the bullet. Today, I submitted my first picture book to a literary agency. I still can’t believe that I finally did it. I have at least a dozen picture books that are essentially written. They just need editing and adjustment.

Why so many? Well, I just leave them alone. They need time away from me. I need time away from them. From my characters. I have to let them stew, develop, and then rest. I need the rest. When it is something that is so close to you–after all, it comes from you–it needs a break. I let this book in particular rest on and off for nearly a year.

What was my reasoning? Simple. I let it pour out of me, like water from a jug. It was fast, pure, clean and simple. It scares me. After I finally admitted that I truly wanted to be a writer and not play at it, ideas just came. When I admitted my passion, I cried.  Then, I prayed. It was simple. If I do the work, please help me with my idea stream. As long as I am working, the ideas keep pouring out of me. God works wonders.

Am I expecting much? For a first submission? I would love for it to be accepted. However, I am also a realist. Maybe I will receive good feedback from the agents, even if my book is not a good “fit” for them.  Constructive criticism can never hurt, as long as you realize that it is constructive.

That being said, I am off to take a walk. Clear my head and work on a PR campaign for a new non-profit that I am on the Board of Directors for. More about that later.

Not blogging much…

That’s a good thing, right? It means that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing, writing. Which is always soothing for the soul. I head over to my favorite jazz channel, start streaming and let the words flow. It’s peaceful. Soothing. It helps me…well, I don’t know how to describe it, but it works for me.

I think I am almost there. At that point when I have to say enough is enough and start shopping my book. I am terrified. It’s something that we all have to go through, but don’t you wish there was a magic wand that you could wave and say “abracadabra, kalamazoo, here is a book deal for you!”. That would take away the most important part of the writing process…actual producing a quality piece of work.

Well, I am off to open my file, print  and cut it into little pieces to make sure it’s “fits”.

Quick note…

A vacation can be a great thing. For me, it has been fantastic. My block is gone and I have essentially rewritten the last book I was working on over the last few days. I still have some changes here and there….but I am feeling so much better about myself, my writing and things in general.

Thank you for being there. Ya’ll know who you are.